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EXCUSES
what exatcly on earth am I cravin' for?

I can't denial the fact that jealousy arouse.
maybe it's normal for friends, best friends especially, to have this kind of feelings? maybe.
probably, the fault lies in me.
perhaps, I'm findin' excuses all along. I don't know.
but why do I need to find excuses? doesn't make sense either -.-
why do things always go against me???
why? why? and WHY??
it's not just sometimes. BUT always.
devastated. shattered.
how I wish things can be like foods.
in-digested-out
if things turn out to be this easy, my life would be a favourable one.
if only...

current state,
mind filled with things that being tangled together.
like rojak T.T
that kind of feelin' is worse than being stung by millions of bees!
so dark that you can't see a thing.
so lost that you can't find a way out.
the saddest thing is that I don't even know what I want!
this sounds a tad crazy.
But it's rather genuine, at the same time, sad!

hope that the storm will soon be over..
whatever it is, back to the original.










`jaa