Sunday, January 4, 2009 6:02:00 AM
RESOLUTION?o.O?I was blog-hopping just now; and I hopped to Ben's blog, a famous blogger. After reading his latest entry about new year resolution, a few resolutions came across my mind as well; and that makes me want to post'em on my blog as well! So. .
hmm, let me think =)NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS?!
1] To try my best in my studyI'd a long chat with Jiayi the other night, from 12+ to almost 5 in the morning, ha-ha; and that during the chat, I realized that I've been too stressed all along since O level; and that I haven't been taken a breather, a real rest I mean, from my study.
I was obstinate; I wanted to do well; I refused to give up and all these
shit are tormenting me since O level. When I started my year 1, the feeling was even worse, worse like hell! LOL. I have been worried about this, worried about that, worried about all those
shit!
But I do know myself very well that I'm not cut out to be like those who can really study one, for my case: it's just superficial.
I worked real hard when I want to, but I'm not those genius type who can get good result after working HARD. My result, still, will look like
shit when I worked HARD! =( Sighs, I even regretted taking the JC path, but no point regret since I've already put myself into it.
My initial plan was to change to poly, but daddy says
might as well study abroad; the latter seems more reasonable compared to the formal, and so I took my SAT.
The thing is I want to go, but part of me doesn't want to go! -.- Just imagine, your parents, siblings, relatives, friends, all those who love you as well as all those whom you love are here while you are at the other side of the earth. It's not gonna be a happy ending, at least that's what I thought.
So, my first new year resolution: stop stressing myself, okay means okay; not okay means not okay. I just try my best and that's it!
That's what mama's told me as well:
tryyourbest!
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2] leave all the decisions asideI'm someone who hates making decision to the core! If you know me well, you will know what I mean, LOL. Yeah, my second resolution is to stop myself from thinking SO DAMN much.
Like what Jiayi said
为什么你要想将多？[why think so much?]. To think or not to think is really not up to me, 'cuz sooner or later I need to make a decision but I don't know how to make a good decision! -.-
Making a decision is really not as easy as reading a story book! Because it concerns my future, for your information I'm 19 already, going 20 infact, I really gotta make right choices lest landing in the wrong path.
The thing is I don't know what's best for me! =(
So, I gonna leave whatever
shitty decision makings to fate. I'm gonna make myself happy by leaving them to fate because I will automatically feeling down in the dumps when coming to decision making, LOL.
It's just like avoiding though, but I live for once so why not live my life happily?
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Haha, yeah. I can only think of two resolutions at this point of time.
Know what? I've finished my chinese assignments! and I'm left with chemistry and revisions! haha =)
looking forward to tomorrow: meeting my P. Fam hahhahahha!
p/s:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RAINE! [in advanced =P]
adios.
IMAGINATION! that's all it takes to fly