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FINALLY.
Try your best . .

WOW! Hhhahahahah-HA! Okay I'd been too lazy to post and I don't know what to post. Yesterday, Raine, Jiayi and Jul came over to my place to, actually, finish the ah-hem, but we ended up in the cinema watching the unborn.


The female lead: Odette Yustman stars as Casey Beldon; then I think the male lead, stars as her boyfriend, is very handsome =x hohoh!

Told you he's handsome!! =D actually Casey is very preety also =))))) hahaha

I find it quite a nice movie la, BUT I think I simply spent $9.50 for the air-con and those creepy sound effects -.- My last horror movie was Shutter which is like don't know how many years ago; I can't get into sleep after watching horror movie because I will start to let my imagination runs wild when the lights out and when there's pin-drop silence LOL! =x

Yeah, that was why I'd been cover my eyes for all the terrifying scenes yesterday: what's the purpose of watching horror movie when you cover your eyes for all the terror scenes -.- LOL!


Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

hahahaha. yeah, Raine and Jul stayed over at my place too! =) Initially, we agreed to stay up for audition BUT all got KO-ed at around 3+ =.-!! LAOYA~

AHAHHAHA!

I'd made my decision after pondering for 1 yr+ and I'm proud of myself! Because this is my first time ever made a decision without the influence of others =)

I find it hard to break the news to my friends [P.fam especially] and my mom [because I discussed it with my dad only]. I didn't even know how to start. LOL.

But I felt really touched upon receiving all the replies, thank you guys =)

SO what exactly is happening is that I'm going to apply for 1 month leave from the college first [If the principal doesn't approve, I'll choose to withdraw]. Dad had booked the air ticket, I'll be flying off to New York with my Grands and uncle, and the exact date will be confirmed on Monday, maybe.

Went for counseling session yesterday with my friends, and I think the counselor made a point; kind of enlightened me and making me even more sure of what I'm doing. =)

The more you think, the more confusion arouse; but it's not a bad thing to think too much as it will bring you even further to either making an improvement to it or making it even worse, and it's our choice if we want to make the improvement =)




p/s: I'm unable to tell all my friends about this decision that I'd made because I'd lost all the contacts in my cell phone =(







adios.

BLANK.
Forlorn of hope? NO!

I'm pretty sure that I'd kind of screwed up my block test. Sighs, I don't know.

I was determined to score well for this test yesterday, but the sudden weariness came across me when I was about to start studying[alone].

I was up and ready for school this morning, but the same weariness stopped me from changing into my uniform.

I succeeded in persuading myself to get up from where I fell this morning, but I got tripped by the same irritating weariness right after I got up!
-went back to my bed and sleep . . . .

Things come in unpredictably at times, most of the time; it just happened abruptly that you have the least idea of knowing how to handle.
-I got lost in my own world . . . .

I know I'm not the only one got adhered by stress, even till now my eyes are still freaking in pain! Fuck.

hahahahahahahaha-HAHAH! I sounded so emo above huh? Like what aline'd said
we must smile more to prevent aging.
especially when I'm gonna hit 20 at this coming October LOL! -.- SO OLD! -.-

hahahhaha! yeah, bloody 2.4 tomorrow! WISH ME GOOD LUCK YO! =D

LAUGH MORE!!!
hahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhaha
HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAH
hahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahhahhhahhahahahahahahaha
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I know my evil laughter is just so irritating! oops =x






p/s: Thanks dad for giving me your fullest support & mom for loving me so much!! =D haha!

p/p/s: Thanks god for letting me be their daughter! LOL. I'm kind of insane =p

nighty-nights
adios.

ABSENT
-minded


I didn't go school today, not feeling very well; it's a bad feeling - mental fatigue.


It's demoralizing whenever you know that you're not gonna do well after you worked so bloody hard for it.

Tried so hard to encourage yourself to stand up yet you're falling again and again, this is so tiring.

I need a breather and so I decided today will be the day for me to take a short break from school! =D But I'm not trying to slack, mind you! hahahahahahah-HAHA!

Laugh more? Will this really works to wipe the troubles away from you?


adios.

Sucks!
Gotta go all the way . .

School's starting again tomorrow =( The holiday was just too short!! I'm currently still in my holiday mood LO! Aiyo, so sad.

Hahahhaha-HA!

School sucks though, but we gotta work real hard for our ultimate aim yea! =)





adios.

WEIRDO.

I'm tired. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Thanks for accompanying me today!!! =D heh heh hehs

love you guys lots. Yeah, 3 cheers for our friendship! =DD

AND I SAW 帅哥(gorgeous) TODAY!! =D muahahahaahahahahaha!

I'm just weird, I'm just so weird that I don't know what I want.




adios.

TIRED!
so dead.

When I just woke up this morning, I saw everyone (brothers & mom) was preparing as in they were bathing, changing and etc; I was like question-marks hanging all over my head o.o? With this unusual scenes I asked my mom What happened? Where are y'all going? My mom replied GO MALAYSIA LAH! I was like What? How come I'm not informed?! LOL, all of a sudden -.-

I was like damn tired this morning, no choice but to drag myself up to prepare lest I stay home alone. I'd drawn up a study plan for this week BUT with all the disruptions, I doubt I can follow the schedule that I'd planned. LOL! SEE, I didn't slack HOR! I tried to work hard HOR! Just that the god isn't on my side. =P

BAH! Why are there so many tests!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn! I was informed, few minutes ago, that the GP homework that my tutor gave has a little error -.- damn because I'd done my GP homework last Sunday! With this error means I NEED TO RE-DO! -.- KILL ME! SOMEONE JUST KILL ME PLEASE!



p/s: I miss my dad; I miss my baby brother; I miss everyone.




adios.

KO-ed
sians.

We were trying very hard to complete the er-hem yeah. Jul went home first but Jiayi stayed till 2+? It's kinda crazy, we were chatting as if we haven't chatted for don't know how many donkey months LOL. Yeah, and I was supposed to wake up at 5.30; meet LinYing in school at 6.25 BUT because I'd only 3 hours of sleep, I can't even force my eyes to open not to say drag myself up to prepare. LOL

There was only 1 thing in my mind: Lina, don't go; go back to sleep, it's okay never mind. CIP hour only ma, aiya DON'T GO! LOLOLOLOL! -.- Yeah, I gave LinYing a call and said 'LinYing, I think I'm not going; very tired.'

And so I went back to my bed eventually LOL ahahahah. I couldn't help but woke up quite early - 9am! -.- because my stupid stomach was giving me stupid problem; it was aching like hell -.- DAMN! It's still aching! -.-!

I actually wanted to complete my GP homework then go memorize all the shit for SPA tomorrow, BUT the stupid GP question had already killed me even before I started writing -.-

NO IDEA HOW TO WRITE LEH!!

Sighs.

I feel that my life is only about facing school works and nothing else; it's quite meaningless. Frankly speaking, I envy those people who're always partying partying partying non-stop. I want that kind of life too, it's like full-of-substance -.- hahahaha! How can I go party when I'm here trying so hard to catch up with my school works, I don't like my life: it's just lifeless LOL.

I should have chosen poly. I think that suits me more; very much more.


adios.

HOLIDAY!
Abated?

The war has most probably abated, it's a good thing to mention though but I don't know why is there still rejection towards her; whenever I see her, I can't stop myself from remembering all those disgusting excuses that she gave. Sighs, am I the one who's having the problem or something? I don't know.

It was worse than living in hell yesterday during chemistry lecture, a sudden surge of depression struck me; you wouldn't understand how much I want her to be out of my sight when we were in the same room. That shows how much I hate her; how much I wanted to scream at her face.

I can't fathom why I got so agitated over her telling lies (there's no evidence to prove that she's lying though) also; perhaps it's because no one ever says such BIG lies to me before, and I'd been the one who told fibs (it's just some very small lies to my parents when I was in primary school) all along and now I can really feel how my parents felt then. Karma LOL! You never know hahahahahha!

Yeah, but today, I don't know why, unwillingly though, but I think there maybe chances for us to be , er, I know it's quite an Irony after having said so much shit above, yeah, to be hi-bye friend. =.- No points burying all the anger inside since she will never realize her mistakes; it's kinda tired to see your enemy who is in the same class as you every day. I don't like her.

After Wednesday, I realized that to hate someone is really an arduous, on-going task that requires hell lots of energy, and it's gonna be a never-ending task. FORGET IT.

But anyway, we had sports meet today which had also marked the last day for term 1! hahahahahhahaahahahhahahaahaha-HA! MY HOLIDAY HAD FINALLY ARRIVED!!!!!!

OKAY! TELL YOU WHAT! I'M DAMN HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!



p/s: BIG thanks to Aline to be there for me on Wednesday! =D

p/p/s: BIG thanks to Ting for your morning message! hahhahahha =D


ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAY PEOPLE!!









adios.

Tsk.
So not fun . .

Just finished my online works about an hour ago; I took quite a long time, eh? Hahahah-HA! Why? Because I'm so kind that I let my dear HaoHao finished her GP, maths & Chem quiz first before I started doing my online-homework.

Sighs, it's so VERY NOT fun -.- I'd been looking forward to today's Home-Learning Exercise because we can stay at home instead of going to school! I really don't like to go school now, kind of sick of school; school's a dread to me right now, really. I'd never have feeling like this before during my secondary school time, I don't know, I just shiver at the thought of school. Pathetic huh? What a joke!

Don't like the whoever, don't like the heavy works that are always coming in non-stop.

I should be happy; and I will be happy. I will never, ever, let myself be angry because of her! Never again. Because to get angry because of a shameless bitch makes me an idiot. HOHO! Agree? Please say YES! =D

Sighs, Okay I think I got side-tracked -.- LoL. Yeah, HLE isn't fun at all! Tsk tsk, tons of homework waiting [I'd completed the works given though] LOH! hahaha.

Yeah, how I wish my dad's here. He'll be here in er, a few days time? hahah! I've things to discuss with him, I just want to get it over with; fast and sweet so that I can decide what I really want to achieve before everything is too late, in fact, it's a little too late now.


p/s: Hahahah! Had a great time cursing her with VV this afternoon/morning. HAHHAHA!

p/p/s: I can't help but shudder at the thought of the fact that I've to see the face of a hypocrite tomorrow *puke*






adios.

ARGH!! -.-
BIG liar!

Goddamnit! She sure is one BIG liar man! I can't believe she's the ability to make up new stories again and AGAIN! She's not only an excellent story writer but a fabulous Actress too! WTH! Shameless s2pid girl!

I'm so SO angry with her lah!

Currently burning inside, they (my friends and that s2pid -.-) had a 'talking' session today. Do you guys have any idea what this shameless girl did? She showed the teachers and my friends her GREAT acting skill! tsk tsk. I've never come across any person who is so SHAMELESS before! I mean there are people who's like this BUT not as shameless as her LAH! What a brazen liar -.-! Stupid Stupid STUPID!!!

LOL. I kept complained to my mom immediately after I reached home LOL! Sighs. I can't get the anger off my body LOH! Then my mom said we shouldn't be so angry because she's most probably laughing at us inside and she's not worth to. -.- ARGH! I was like, screaming out loud, HOW TO STOP MY ANGER when she's so obviously making up stories! -.- CHICKEN BACKSIDE LAH!

Sighs. Why would things turned out like this? WATLAO WHY?! Deny deny deny deny STILL DENY! Lying lying lying lying STILL SHAMELESSLY LYING! ANGRY! Oh mother, I seriously can't agree with you LOL =(

Telling lies is simply her forte; she's just a good-for-NOTHING! Nothing at all, er-hem, except for all those shamefulness that's hanging all over her body, her face especially! STUPID NUGGERT!

Notice that I didn't type out her name simply because I don't want her malodorous name to contaminate my blog! *puke* AND I don't want to give her any chance to complain to the principal, which is also her specialty, with her MAMA and get myself into troubles because of this stupid SHAMELESS IDIOT! SICKening!

The more I type, the more I think I should agree with mom. Hhahahhaha, let's see how long more can she continues to brag/lie/show off/act innocent/act mama-girl. People out there better be aware of this cunning smelly fox! nuggeRt LAH!!!

Lastly before I go, as I've been restricting myself to type out these colourful sentence since the first alphabet I typed in this entry which is quite a torture inside and so I decided to let this caged colourful sentence be freed:

FUCK YOU BITCHY J******!

Hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha
hahahaaaaaaaaaahahaahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

I'M FEELING SO GOOD, SO MUCH BETTER NOW! HAHAHAAHHAHAHA!

We don't have to be present in school tomorrow because it's E-learning day! YOHOOOOOO~
hehs.





adios.

FRIENDS
or foes?

I'd lost a friend today, not really today but yesterday where I decided not to forgive her, ever! When I saw her being ostracized by us; if it was last time I would feel bad about it but today, I felt nothing instead simply because I think SHE DESERVED IT!

It's not that I didn't give her any chance; I immediately thought of forgiving her when I first read her apology message, that was when I felt that I should tell her what really went wrong and the reasons why I'm angry with her; and I, stupidly, thought she would realize her mistakes and learn her lesson BUT little did I know that she not only didn't learn her lesson but she was still fucking denying, giving some super weak evidence to prove her innocence! -.-

I feel so glad to lose a friend like her!

At least there's something I'm very-super sure right now which is that I'll never ever listen to her explanations or words that are coming outta her sickening mouth because I'll never forgive her! Never, you bitchy fucking asshole! oops =x I shouldn't have said that because people like her who has a very damn fragile heart couldn't take harsh words like this and will report to the teacher/principle with her MAMA immediately! Goddamnit I'M SO SCARED! -.-

FREAK!

p/s: I seriously can't stand her anymore; not even willing to see her in school. REALLY DON'T LIKE HER! ><


I don't know when was the first time I took up the habit of scolding vulgarities, I used to refrain from scolding vulgarities, the very extreme words I would use were like "猪啊你！", "死猪头！" but now . . . 'Fuck la!' 'fuck you!' all those colorful languages will come out from my mouth automatically, habitually. Sighs,

Actually, even though I always blurt out these words so smoothly, I kind of abhor this habit of mine. I really (swear) want to kick this habit but once it's a habit it'll never be easy to kick it off from you =( Tell me how to?




p/p/s: I REALLY DETEST THE SIGHT OF HER!



adios.

FREAK
Fuck.

You're still denying; I'm so fucking disappointed in you.
BYE to you!



adios.

BORED
It's an abstract life.



adios.

Taylor Swift: Our song

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car
He’s
got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look
around, turn the radio down
He says baby is something wrong?
I say
nothing I was just thinking how we don’t have a song
And he says…

Our song is the slamming screen door,
Sneakin’ out late, tapping on
your window
When we’re on the phone and you talk real slow
Cause it’s
late and your mama don’t know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first
date “man, I didn’t kiss her, and I should have”
And when I got home …
before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was
walking up the front porch steps after everything that day
Had gone all
wrong and been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway,
well on my way to my lovin’ bed
I almost didn’t notice all the roses
And
the note that said…

Our song is the slamming screen door,
Sneakin’
out late, tapping on your window
When we’re on the phone and you talk real
slow
Cause it’s late and your mama don’t know
Our song is the way you
laugh
The first date “man, I didn’t kiss her, and I should have”
And
when I got home … before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I’ve heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something
to come along
That was as good as our song…

Cause our song is the
slamming screen door
Sneaking out late, tapping on his window
When we’re
on the phone and he talks real slow
Cause it’s late and his mama don’t know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date “man, I didn’t kiss him,
and I should have”
And when I got home, before I said amen
Asking God if
he could play it again

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In
the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I… wrote
down our song

p/s: cute song :D

adios.

PISSED!!
Fake? -.-

Okay I'm upset; and I was fucking pissed off this morning. I DON'T LIKE HER [the other her and her]! OhFuck! Pardon me for being so vulgar here, just bear with me for a little while. LOL; maybe I am being a bit of petty? Yeah right, maybe =.-

BUT I STILL CAN'T GET THE ANGER OUTTA ME!!!! ARGH ><

'冒牌' [bogus].

I owned the citizenship right after my birth okay! I didn't even convert it, neither did I apply for it! I just have that piece of paper right after my birth; it's genuine, mind you! Fcuk you! and you actually said I '冒牌' [bogus]? Damn pissed off!

Whatever it is, I was just fucking unhappy with that word '冒牌'; I would be damn upset if you were saying I'm a '冒牌' malaysian too. You've already rattled my cage upon saying that word. Who on earth would be happy upon hearing people saying you're faking whatever country nationality? -.-

and, and I got so agitated because I'd not heard anything like this before until my JC life -.- I just feel that it hurts to hear those kind of thing. Fake? *roll eyes* Funny.

okay, I feel so so much better now =D

p/s: thanks aline & aki

p/p/s: I gonna scold the hell out of whoever dares to say I'm a '冒牌' in my face again. LOL



adios.

I HATE CHINESE!
sighs.
don't like don't like don't like don't like don't like don't like
DON'T LIKE!




adios.