misSA-LINA

Monday, March 9, 2009 6:02:00 AM

FRIENDS
or foes?

I'd lost a friend today, not really today but yesterday where I decided not to forgive her, ever! When I saw her being ostracized by us; if it was last time I would feel bad about it but today, I felt nothing instead simply because I think SHE DESERVED IT!

It's not that I didn't give her any chance; I immediately thought of forgiving her when I first read her apology message, that was when I felt that I should tell her what really went wrong and the reasons why I'm angry with her; and I, stupidly, thought she would realize her mistakes and learn her lesson BUT little did I know that she not only didn't learn her lesson but she was still fucking denying, giving some super weak evidence to prove her innocence! -.-

I feel so glad to lose a friend like her!

At least there's something I'm very-super sure right now which is that I'll never ever listen to her explanations or words that are coming outta her sickening mouth because I'll never forgive her! Never, you bitchy fucking asshole! oops =x I shouldn't have said that because people like her who has a very damn fragile heart couldn't take harsh words like this and will report to the teacher/principle with her MAMA immediately! Goddamnit I'M SO SCARED! -.-

FREAK!

p/s: I seriously can't stand her anymore; not even willing to see her in school. REALLY DON'T LIKE HER! ><

I don't know when was the first time I took up the habit of scolding vulgarities, I used to refrain from scolding vulgarities, the very extreme words I would use were like "猪啊你！", "死猪头！" but now . . . 'Fuck la!' 'fuck you!' all those colorful languages will come out from my mouth automatically, habitually. Sighs,

Actually, even though I always blurt out these words so smoothly, I kind of abhor this habit of mine. I really (swear) want to kick this habit but once it's a habit it'll never be easy to kick it off from you =( Tell me how to?

p/p/s: I REALLY DETEST THE SIGHT OF HER!

adios.

LinaGOH