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11.2009

BROKEN.
words.

Few days ago, I made a promise to myself:
from today onwards, I gonna sleep at 10 o'clock, latest 11.
However, the fact that I'm right here updating my blog, at this hour, clearly showed that I broke my own promise. Hahahha-HA!
It's 2358 by the way.
It's not that I broke my promise on purpose, and I really want to sleep early but sometimes I just can't.
Okay, please don't think that I'm giving excuses.
The lonely red vaio that was sitting on the table, waiting for her owner to be back, is always too alluring that I couldn't resist the temptation to switch it on.
Hahaha, I'm giving excuses. =P

I think it's not healthy to be protected all the time.
because I used to be protected.
cared.
loved.
I'm still though, just that everything was done in different medium - different.
Now, I'm all on my own, with the mental supports from my family and friends though.
I, somehow, seen through a lot of things, learnt a lot of things.
Everything seems to be changing, so much
that when it's time for you to realize - it's already changed way too much that you're left behind with your old habits.

Time flies, with just a blink of an eye - I'd been here for three months already.
Frankly speaking, I'd long been acclimatized.
to the environment,
to the foods,
to the drinks,
to the weather,
to everything
but the people - it's hard to read their faces.
some are good, really nice.
some are bad, really mean.

Anyway, school is starting real soon
few more weeks, perhaps.
I'm excited but nervous at the same time :(
Afraid
that I'll give up half-way to the finishing line - the end
that I'll let stress overwhelm my determination, my perseverance
I'd failed once and I can't let myself savour the taste of failure a second time.
having eluded from the tremendous pressure, I thought I could be remained unseen behind the curtain of fantasy
But I thought wrong.
The cruel reality seemed to have woken me up from my flawless fantasy.
It's time to show my life what I've got!



I think sleep is going to elude me tonight.
adios.